Sunday, February 9, 2014

Follow up to Yesterday~

Yesterday, I cried because I hurt for my child... Today, I cried because of the abundance of blessings that I have been given...the love shown to KB and me are simply overwhelming.... I had no idea so many people loved my child so much and had precious stories of how big her heart is! 

As of right now, my blog to KB yesterday has had 487 hits... a simple letter to a child who is hurting from a mother who wants her to survive disappointment by knowing that all things happen for a reason. 

Romans 8:28   And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Today is my birthday... I didn't unwrap one present the entire day... but I have been given so much... I have read so many text messages and facebook messages lifting KB and me up in prayer...that no gift would have been able to touch my heart the way they have... I have always worried about expressing my faith for the public because I am such a sinner... I'm guilty every day by my thoughts, my actions, and my words.  I would be the first to look at someone's blog and say, "Who does she think she is writing about God helping her... she does wrong every day!"... But today... I want to share my faith.

This morning was hard... it was hard to get up and know that I must go to church and smile... I'm so glad I didn't run from this situation... the old Britt would have been sick today... But God knew I needed to be in His house... to focus... and get back on track...As Dr. Harrell began his sermon... I knew it was just for me... I feel sure no one else got anything out of it... because I got so much!  A story I have heard and read about many times was the topic.  Luke 17: 11-19.  The story of the ten men with leprosy... after being healed...only one came back praising God... he was considered a foreigner... My favorite of this passage is verse 19

Then he said to him, "Rise and go; your faith has made you well." Luke 17:19

That is so true... while it would have been much easier to let my tongue, my actions, and my thoughts control this situation, I find peace in knowing that my faith is making me well... and it is... there is a joy and closeness to God that I know is His plan... and His doing.  It is through trials that we can show our truth faith or the devil's colors.... I hope and pray that KB will see that we get through this with our faith. 

My devotion today was perfect for me...

My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"  Your face, Lord, I will seek.  Psalm 27:8

I have needed this so many times today.... messages of support and advice and stories of their own...each bringing sweet tears flowing... they reminded me that God would handle this... and He will... KB has been flooded with messages as well... she has shared some with me...people who took time to care about her... her feelings... her emotions... to see her smile today has brought me much happiness... she is doing great because I know that God has her in His hands... she trusts Him... and she knows that she will be fine.  I ask God to guard her heart... and He will. 

I ended the day with this message from tonight's service...

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.   Proverbs 16:9

Thank you God for providing me with family, friends, and a faith to get through situations that I become upset about... My faithfulness to your word the past few months has allowed me to grow...I have grown... I know the importance of being in Your house, listening to Your words, and trying to live a life of example for my children have made me deal with this in a way that is pleasing to You.  The tears will eventually dry up, the story will be old news, people will forget... but my hope is KB will always remember to deal with situations in a Godly way, to gain rest at night because of doing the right thing, and to trust that every cloud has a silver lining! 

Thank you again for the birthday messages... the kind words... and most of all... the prayers... as KB left the house yesterday morning... I reminded her of the prayer Mama taught me when I was in the 5th grade...

Dear Lord,
Help me to remember that nothing can happen to me that you and I together can't handle... Amen....

What a beautiful prayer that she may always remember to say in good times... and bad. 




Saturday, February 8, 2014

Perspective...

What an emotional day it has been... Of all your accomplishments and achievements, I have to say your reaction to today's events have made me prouder of you in defeat than in winning... The last six hours I have learned just how mature you are... just how much you have listened to me... and just how strong-willed you are!  I'm so proud of you in looking toward the future already!

Again, this blog is for you to know how much I love you... I want you to remember this day.... I want you to remember it for many reasons... I want you to remember that when things don't go the way you want them to go... those who love you will be there for you.  The number of people who have cared... we can't thank them enough!  The phone calls, text messages, hugs, chocolate, and even a letter are way more than either of us expected... No matter how many times we said this would happen, we could never imagine the hurt or disappointment of that first hour... I love how we stayed in your room all afternoon... how we just sat quietly and thought... how we relied on each other... you are so strong... you have been my glue in this situation.  If we don't learn anything through this except we have each other...that is okay... but we learned a lot more than that...

Relying on God in this has helped us both... with the hurt, the disappointment, and the embarrassment we may want to feel... we know that it was nothing you could have done to make Him any prouder...He still loves you...and that is all that truly matters. 

 As I pondered what to write to you tonight... I think God knew that it was so hard for me... my phone buzzed for the 100th time with a message checking on us and this appeared... I couldn't have said it any better... and I won't even try!  I love you baby girl... you have made it 14 years without disappointment in your life... this was the first... but won't be the last... keep your eyes on God and just like the letter says... change your perspective when situations don't go as you planned... You are going to survive!  I'm really excited about your future... you are truly bouncing back! 


Emmie- thank you for your words... lots of sweet, sweet messages today... but you hit the nail on the head!  We love you!  I pray often she will be like you...

My Sis....

I have said it before...many times... but I never in all my dreams thought that I would have a daughter who would play a sport... I have to admit... I didn't dream big enough...

It all started with a few people who are very special to us...
This picture above has three very important men in KB's life... My daddy is in the center... Mark's daddy is leaning on him... and J Mac is kneeling with just a jersey on...

And then this picture has Mark... holding trophy and Jefferson holding plaque (her first love)....

What I never really thought about until this year... It's in her blood... she has the genes, not mine, to play... Betty Carol played too, but I can't find a picture of her! 

I am so proud of her... so proud she got out of the box I put her in... so proud she isn't afraid... so proud she has confidence to do things differently than what I dreamed...

I'm also proud of the friends she has made.... Yesterday... after two years of playing ball, we WON!!!  The best part to me... wasn't the actual win... but at the end when her entire bench was yelling for them to give the ball to KB and let her shoot... she never made it, but I had tears in my eyes to see what a true team is... how those girls didn't worry about themselves individually... but they were pulling for the team to be successful... and giving of their points for this little girl to get a chance... thanks girls.... You are the BEST!  I look forward to many more years of this!!!

These are few shots from yesterday... It was a great season... I'm so proud of you, Sis!!!



 Sweet Jessica! 



 Thanks Christie... you brought out something I could have never done!  God puts special people in our lives and our children's lives for that reason...

 Love the hand slapping...

 Defense!!!

 Varsity and Junior Varsity.... eating at Soap Creek!
 These two... it's in their genes... Go BIG RED! 


Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Jane is..... 70!

When Daddy turned 70 in October I wrote 70  things about him.... It's only fair Mama gets a turn too.

1.  She was born Jane Guillebeau.  (No Guillebeau girl had a middle name until Leah and Bobbie came along... rumor was that Guillebeau was too hard to spell so the girls only needed one name.

2.  Her daddy, Harvey Jordan Guillebeau, was quite a character.  He died when I was in elementary school, but my favorite memory of him was coming to the den after Mary's good lunch and telling Leah, Bobbie, and me that there was a sick man in the house and he needed his sleep... Don't get under his window and wake him up!  It was a joke... We loved to play under his window!  He was the mayor, school board chairman, postmaster....and the husband of Rachel.  She was his heart... I can tell by the way she says things about him....

3.  Rachel Drinkard Guillebeau, Boo-Ma, won't ever die until I do.... I see myself daily acting the way she did... I ask questions, I tell you how I feel, and I don't hide my emotions very well.  Mama is like that too...

4.  Mama was a beauty queen in high school... when I turned 16 I couldn't wait to follow in her footsteps and be in Miss Lincoln County Green... she had Velda as her pineseedling...and I had Amberly.... my prayer these days is that Amberly will HURRY up and have a little girl and let Katie Britt carry on the legacy... but that also means she has to move... Mama loves a pageant.... And she is right on when calling a winner... I love to watch her at a pageant... you can tell by her facial expression if she thinks the girl will do well or not...

5.  The funniest award that Mama got was the Betty Crocker homemaker award... at the time she couldn't boil water... but now... she cooks for a minimum of 14 people every Sunday... it's delicious every Sunday...and I work all week to get the pounds off that  I gain on Sunday ...

6.  As I sit here and think about my first memory of Mama... I remember standing up in the back of the car on the hump... riding down the road and Jim and Guille were going somewhere I wanted to go... she turned around and said, "We girls... we will go somewhere!"... From that day forward... I always got cards and flowers with "We Girls" on it.... Thank goodness I was the only girl... I wouldn't have liked sharing her with anyone else.

7.  I see myself in Boo-Ma every day... but I also see Mama... I got her honesty... It didn't matter what I was involved in...where I was going... what I was doing... she was always honest... Examples include after winning pageants she would quickly remind me of something I didn't do well at... it was good for me... kept me balanced... she also told me several times that I looked like Endora on Bewitched because of my eye make-up.... I would get mad... and go straight to the bathroom and wipe it off....

8.  99.9% of the time she is right... or she has good intentions to be right... I only listen about 50% of the time and have to go back and change what I am doing or where I go... the older I get... I think the more I listen...

9.  People say they would die for their children... She really would... I have seen her fighting mad for Jim, Guille, and me... she loves us... unconditionally...and even when Jim and I do things to make her mad... Guille is perfect...he never does... She still loves us! 

10.  Without a doubt... she gets Grandmother of the Year... even though none of them call her Grandmother... they call her Jane... I love it... when we lived in Greenville the lady at the Lancome counter loved it too... she would make people gather around to hear KB call her that...

11.  One year when we went to HHI for vacation... KB asked her what that cream was she was putting on her face... Mama said to prevent wrinkles... the next night at the Old Oyster Factory KB said, "It ain't working Jane"... and Mama asked her what wasn't working... KB said, "The wrinkle cream"... what a laugh that was...

12.  When we lived in Greenville she would call on Saturday morning and ask us what we were doing... I would say nothing.... come on up... and she would come and stay until dark ....

13.  Mark has just come through and said his favorite memory of Mama is of the time that she let an ugly word slip... I had forgotten about that... I should have added that she would kill for Mark too... she actually likes him better than she does me...

14.  She spoils me... she gives me things I don't need... and I love the months of Jan-April.... she will buy a random thing... not much... $5 or $10 and say it is for my birthday... makes Mark and KB mad because she gives me things for four months... I can't help it... I love a bargain.... got that from her...

15.  I love her work ethic... she works still... she could retire and sit at home and cook us supper every night... and babysit in the afternoons... and run the children where they need to go... and fix breakfast and lunch for us... but she chooses to work instead... can't imagine why...

16.  When I was little I would get so mad because she would stay in the bathroom for an hour... I totally understand that now... I do it too.... sometimes I sit there with my clothes on for some peace... and I only have two children... if you don't count Mark... she would always have the crossword puzzle and her Bible and devotion.... the apple falls right off the tree... the bathroom is the only place to get some peace... I learned that from her.... my children haven't learned it yet though... I'm still working on it...

17.  She didn't let me run wild... except for that one time she let me go to a concert in Augusta... I wanted to be wild... I wanted to go and do all the time, but she always said no... And now... because of her... I can tell my children that I have never done drugs... never been arrested... never stolen anything (except this rug from Target when I had a carseat in the buggy and the girl didn't charge me)... but Mama was with me.... I didn't have a bad reputation... my reputation was I drove around town all the time... over, and over, and over... and spent a lot of money on gas.... not too bad... 

18.  Ben says his favorite memory of Jane is she always cooks his lunch and supper and whatever he wants... and that is true... she can have a meat and three and if says he wants something else... she fixes it...

19.  She is hard to surprise.... she calls every day... always knows where we are and what we are doing... if there had been cell phones when I was in high school... wow...

20.  I love hearing her talk about old times... like things she knows about people that make me love them more...or respect them a little less...

21.  She and Daddy both have iphones... at 70... and they know how to work them... but she doesn't know how to pump gas... true southern lady....

22.  She has enabled Daddy to do nothing in his life... when he dies... there will be men lined up out the door to marry her (they are my age).... they want her cooking, and cleaning, and organizing their lives... sad thing is.... she says "When Butch dies I ain't marrying anyone else because I ain't washing no other man's underwear!"

23.  I got a lot of things from her... but not the organized Tupperware, closets, and towels... If you walk in my house... it looks neat... but don't open a closet....

24.  The summer I was fourteen my friends and I would steal the extra car in the driveway everyday and ride around town until Mama and Daddy got home... that was the best summer... I loved it... the next summer... Mama had a hysterectomy and was home with me all summer... ugh... what a bore... she didn't let me drive at 15 and I was miserable...

25.  Mama was with me the night before KB was born... she spent the night sitting up in a chair with BC's green coat wrapped around her... the next morning... she was with me when they told us of the scaare we would have delivering KB... I'm so glad she was there....

26.  She gave up a week of staying with me when KB was born and let Mary come and stay with me... but when Ben was born she came and stayed a week... I was so proud I had not cried after his birth... the minute BC and Mawmaw came to pick her up... I started... I think I cried for about a week... it was awful...

27.  One time I came home for work sick with a bad virus and called Mama to come to Greenville and help me because Mark was going out of town... when I got settled, Mark walked in and he had the same thing... Mama and Daddy came in and said they would just take KB home with them until we got better.... KB started selling insurance at about four months old...

28.  Mama was a cheerleader in high school... we love to make her stand in the den and do the cheers she used to do... we laugh until we fall out of the chair... recently... I have had that chance with KB.... she laughs at what we used to do... I think I might video her doing the cheer... with her hands as a megaphone... might win some money off that one...

29. She doesn't forget anything... as a child... when people would hurt my feelings or make me mad... I would keep going and forget about it... she hasn't... will still bring things up... I'm finding myself more like that now that I have two babies of my own...

30.  I have always felt she named Guille and me wrong... His name is horrible... I think that is why she likes him so much... Harvey Guillebeau Mattison... BUT... she should have named me Guille... and him Britt... that may be her only mistake in life... other than not letting me drive at 15.

31.  I love her knack for catering... I mean... she even got to cater for Christina Aguilera... she didn't know who she was, but she did it... we call her all the time to cook for us at the BOE... she loves it... and it is so good... I'm trying to learn all that!  We have always said she should write us a cookbook and do it in meals... what goes with what... from the meat and three to the dessert...

32.  I should have mentioned earlier that she would kill for her grandbabies too... don't mess with them.... don't talk about them... don't say what they need to do... don't say what they don't need to do... the one thing I have learned from her... is the people who usually cross her... end up having a way worse time years later... so... I try not to cross her myself! 

33.  She loves to tell me what to do... you need to move this, move that, clean that out... her philosophy is there is always something to do to better yourself... she will be so mad when she realizes the hours it took me to write this... I could have spent my time doing something else....

34.  I am fortunate... she gets along with Mark's mama... they love to get together and chat... Betty Carol agrees with Mama about Daddy... they talk about him all the time... I giggle listening to them! 

35.  My feelings get hurt when people ask us if we are sisters... I'm trying... I'm wearing the wrinkle cream, exercising, drinking water... doing everything I can not to look 70!

36.  She has been infatuated with many men in her life... Elvis was her first man... she said she used to sit on the porch waiting on him to come by and pick her up....

37.  When I was real little... it was Robert Redford... I remember a yellow t-shirt with his picture on it that she loved in a store one time...

38.  When I was in high school she moved on to Patrick Swayze... Coach Campbell sent her flowers on her birthday from  him... she had a poster of him in the closet... and she knew every line of Dirty Dancing...

39.  She was nice enough to drive older ones to Augusta... She took Ina and Faye to see George Jones and this character named Vince Gill opened... It was love at first sight... and she hasn't stopped loving him... we have seen him so many times I can't count it... She has stalked his house in Nashville... skipped out on my cousin's wedding reception to see him at the Opry... and let me dance to his song at my wedding! 

40.  She has done something right.... she has three children who have graduated from college... we all have jobs... we have normal spouses (as normal as a country girl from Pembroke and basketball player from Elberton...along with a boy from McCormick for a son-in-law can be).... she has beautiful grandchildren who are smart, outgoing, and know that she loves them more than life itself... I'm going to do everything I can to be just like that! 

41. Mark and I are lucky that she has been willing to babysit our children when they were too little to go on trips... and now... we love her going with us wherever we go... she makes up our beds... feeds the children breakfast in bed... and keeps trucking even when she is too tired to move!  NYC and San Antonio and San Diego were so much fun!

42.  KB's favorite memory of Jane is trying to understanding in technology and fussing about people's phones who say "Droid" when a message comes through....

43.  Ben also wants to add that Jane always tells him she loves him...

44.  She knows better... she knows she shouldn't curse... but sometimes she slips...we all do... but we used to have a white cat that stood at the door and always wanted to come inside (due to Guille and me)... When the cat would run through... she would grit her teeth and tell the cat  "Get your A$$$$$ out of this house!"... and the cat would go to the door... she was special like that... hates animals.. but they listen to her! 

45.  One of my favorite wedding pictures is of me and this cat... she rolled her eyes and fussed the entire time and said the cat was going to ruin my dress... P.S.... she likes to tell our cat that too!

46.  She has six grandchildren... two in high school... one in middle school... and three in elementary school... they are all involved in things... she gives up many of her nights to be there to watch them... it makes her mad because Daddy doesn't go to many things... and she says they love him more than they love her...

47.  I should mention that she also treated Amberly and Ward like her own too... we loved them as babies... still do... Daddy and I would go pick them up at night and let her take care of them! 

48.  I can't name the times my children call and tell her they want something and within five minutes it is here... she never stops... she doesn't have a stop button... or pause...

49.  The perfect picture of us on Sundays... thankful for her cooking and cleaning and letting us put our feet on the coffee table....
 50.  We have always been such a nice family... I mean look how excited we are to be helping her decorate the tree... I feel sure we were all about to run out of the house!!! 
 51.  This picture disturbs me... Mama looks like she is in high school... I have five more years until my 30th... I need to get to work! 
 52.  She loves them so much... and look how they have grown!
 53.  These two are so sweet and quiet... no one minds keeping them... Mama loves when they are at the house... they are like cats... they sit... and don't move...
 54.  She will hate me for this... but she LOVES some snow...
 55.  A few summers ago when we went to New Orleans for the Huddle House Convention....
 56.  Feeding Ben at the Easter Egg Hunt... and look how little they were... so sad...
 57.  New Year's Eve... her eyes are closed... Daddy looks like he has been drinking... but we were cold and needed a family picture... Cole loves when I get my camera out.
 58.  Fun picture at Sara Anne's wedding. 
 59.  We girls... in San Antonio... so so so hot... but we can put on the pageant smile and fake it for anyone... we all got that trait... we can cut a hole in someone with a smile... so don't be fooled by it! 
 60.  Precious, sweet baby James  on awards day....
 61.  And Thomas at 8th grade graduation...
 62.  The little boys... she calls them that... I think they are about her height now... and she still says... "the little boys need this or that"
 63.  KB reminding her again about the wrinkle cream... just teasing... I am sure they were picking on Butch... they love to do that!
 64.  NYE... special memories with family... nothing like it... A man should be the leader of the family, but I'm telling you... a woman is the glue... and Mama wins that award... no doubt! 
 65.  The Japanese Fruitcake... Mama's and my favorite... Mary makes it for us.... we don't share... don't ask... It's delicious and my Christmas is complete when Mama tells me it is here! 
66.  I hope my children will love me and need me like I need my mama... I lived away for 11 years and prayed to come back.... I am so blessed... I know that she has given me a foundation that I can take care of myself... but it sure is nice to have her here! 

67.  One day... I hope I have in-laws and grandchildren like her... she treats us all the same... sometimes they get better treatment... but that's okay... they have learned she is honest... and they respect her for that...

68.  I get a lot of my ways from her... I like to think all her good qualities have been passed to me... but then I get afraid of having to cook Sunday lunch....

69.  My final memory to write about is another way I don't think I can be like her... when Jim graduated and used to go to Augusta on the weekends for fun... he and his friends would come in at two and three in the morning and wake up Mama and Daddy... they would tell Mama they were hungry and she would fix them something to eat.... maybe she was thankful they made it home safely... I just hope I can provide my children with the love, the advice, and the precious memories that she has given me....

70.  Happy birthday Mama... I'm sure that many more memories will come to mind... and I am hoping this will spark memories of you for others as well... I hope they will take the time to comment on the post and tell you their favorite memory.... Have a great birthday.... can you pick KB and Ben up from basketball tomorrow, get them supper, and help them with their homework?  Just teasing! 

Monday, January 27, 2014

Getting Ready for a Snow Day...or 2 ... or 1/2

It looks like we may get a little snow tomorrow... I can remember when I was little how wonderful it was to wake up and hear Mama say we didn't have to go to school... I think that was once! My senior year we got out of school early for snow, but I wasn't there because I was sick... I don't really remember a lot of snow days....
When Mark and I moved to Greenville, I was ecstatic about the number of snow days we got... I would wake up all night long running to the window to see if we had school... we usually didn't and it was marvelous.... UNTIL.... it iced and we lost power!
I loved watching Little House on the Prairie growing up... it was my favorite show...still is my favorite... along with Designing Women and Andy Griffith and Brady Bunch... and Family Affair.... anyway.... I always thought it would be fun to cook supper by a fire, roast marshmallows, and live like Laura did... it didn't take me but a few hours to realize that was not my cup of tea....
I think it was 2008.... I had gotten the call that we didn't have school and had settled on the couch with my cup of coffee, Ben sleeping in my arms, and KB playing in her playroom... and then I heard an awful crash and everything went black... the power was out! After an hour, I called Mark and he said it would come back on not to worry.... so I waited another hour.... no power... I called him again and told him we were getting cold and we needed to be somewhere with power. I walked outside and heard something running and thought it was the power truck....so I waited until after lunch before I called Mark again.... one of my neighbors had a generator plugged up...not the power truck...so the noise was there for that reason.... neighbors were telling me that I would be without power for at least two days... I packed my stuff and came to Lincolnton!
I say all this to remind KB and Ben that while most people are frantically getting milk and bread ready for the storm about to hit.... Let me tell you what the really important things are that need to be done...

1. Blow the driveway and porches off so your snow pictures will be smooth and pretty.... (I did that this afternoon)

2. Wash, dry, and iron everything in the house in case we lose power.... (working on my last load now)

3. Call Mayonnaise and make sure your generator will crank and is ready to give you power if it goes out!...(after that ice storm in 2008 we bought a generator that lets me heat my house, run the dishwasher, dryer, and dishwasher.... important!)

4. Have two good meals that you can cook and use for leftovers.... (we usually end up at Mama's, but I have that ready too)

5. Put lines on the carpet....(I plan on doing that tomorrow when we get home)

6. Take a hot bath tonight because you don't know if you will get a "hot" one for a few days! (let's hope the generator kicks in if we need it)

7. Find your gloves, coats, scarves, and hats.... (as soon as the snow starts falling you know we will want to be out in it)

8. Get the four-wheelers gassed up....(you know Mayo will be calling first thing)

9. Make sure your sof-blankies are clean.... nothing like wrapping up in them after you have been in the snow all day!

10. Finally, don't waste your time complaining about having to go to school tomorrow... that is the exciting part... you will make many memories from this snow storm.... hopefully, and to those people who are complaining that no call has been made yet... good grief... there isn't any snow yet... these are the same ones who complained a few weeks ago because we had a delay... the best advice is BE PREPARED... you may or may not be in school all day tomorrow (do your homework.... it has to be done at some point)... call me if you need me to come get you... don't miss out on this fun time worrying about if / when school is going to close! I promise it is a WONDERFUL feeling to wake up to that 5 AM call and hear we don't have school...or even to hear over the intercom at school that we are dismissing early....

I'm trying real hard to take my advice on #10.... I sure wish my class would be cancelled tomorrow night... so.... tonight I leave you with a nice little prayer...

Dear God,

We want it to snow... not ice... and we don't need a long break... just maybe half a day... Thanks for Your love for us... Keep us safe.... Amen.....

Our snow days....through the years....

 The gator KB got when Ben was born... we put 1,000 miles on it! 

 Ben was days old when this storm happened....

 And then he was able to play in it!


 Valentine's day storm our first year in LC....


 Butchie likes some snow....







Monday, January 20, 2014

Be the Change

Dear Sis and Boo~

Open your eyes up people, and take a good look around,
Catch the tears fillin' up all those cracks in the ground.
Turn off you televisions; leave your picture perfect neighborhoods
A lot of folks out there ain't doing so good,
Too many of us left out in the cold

No invitations given, no welcome mats unrolled,
But you can, be the change you wanna see.
Be the hope to those whose lives are far from easy.
Reach out and lend a hand, share everything you can,
And be the change, be the change.

Carry the world on your shoulders, for a little while,
Put on someone else shoes, and walk around.
So many cups a runneth over, while so many goin dry
The grass ain't always green on the other side.
There's still a lot of work to be done,
A lot of wrongs to right, a lot of battles to be won.

If you can be the change you wanna see,
Be the hope to those who lives are far from easy.
Reach out and lend a hand, share everything you can,
And be the change, be the change.

Reach out and lend a hand, share everything you can
And be the change, be the change.



Be the change.
Be the change.
Be the change.



At least once a week I find something on the internet that I think "Wow, I love this"... Mark, KB, and Ben are quick to tell me that I am so far behind~  They have either seen it, heard it, or shared it.... Well... I am sure that this will be no different, but yesterday I found this song while looking for new running music... It is by Corey Smith (never heard of him, but has some really good songs... ).  You have to listen to the song in order to appreciate it... Not sure how I stumbled on this unless it is a Godwink. 

A few Sundays ago, we were asked if we could be anyone... who would we want to be... We all answered with fantasies of rich people, queens, kings, presidents.... and then Mark said something that made me realize just how blessed I am.... He said for one day he wanted to be homeless... to see what it was like.  I could have thought all day long and never come up with that answer... I like to be warm when it is cold outside, cool when it is hot outside, use A LOT of electricity, and eat most things at a non-room temperature.  This proves just how much he thinks... he scares me sometimes... with his wisdom and knowledge... As I have been faced with many things these past few weeks... I think about his answer.  What a lucky girl I am to have a husband who thinks like this... I love seeing God working in his life... Sis and Boo... you don't know how lucky you are... we are three lucky people who probably don't realize just how blessed we are... Each day I wake up and have all intentions of being a better person.  In so many ways I  have changed... but I'm not sure I can catch up to Mark.  Yesterday in Sunday school we talked about how songs and cards and other things we see make us love our spouses even more.... When LeeBo asked the question if it happened to anyone else I couldn't answer... I turn into a sobbing cry baby when I talk about my life... not sure why... but I have a tender heart.  So... to answer that question... Yes, seeing things like lunches fixed, clothes in a washing machine, and my car cranked in the mornings... hearing things like "Trudy", certain songs, and "You aggavatin" make me love him all over again.  I truly believe this song is all about him... he wants to "Be the Change"... No, our world isn't perfect, but I think Mark would rather do for someone else than for himself... I have seen it for the last fourteen years... he goes to work in far away places and can't see his family every day... for some... that isn't anything, but to hear him call and talk about how he feels like he needs to be here breaks my heart.  He savors those moments with our children that I sometimes neglect to enjoy.  As you settled for bed tonight... this song came back to my mind and also made me want to tell you how much your daddy loves you... not because he gives you expensive toys, or elaborate trips, but because he prays for you... wants the best for you... and wants you to be thankful for what you have... May you always know his love for you...he wants you to realize just how blessed we are...  What an example for the three of us to follow...

I hope in the years to come you will always remember ~

Reach out and lend a hand, share everything you can
And be the change, be the change.


 Be the change.
Be the change.
Be the change.


Love your mama... who is working on changing too... I'm still not sure about the no electricity part!  :)


Monday, January 6, 2014

New Year, New You....

ADHD part 42.... I love to exaggerate and use that number .... I have at least 42 thoughts running through my head....
1.  Today ended freedom... back to school, but tomorrow we are on a two hour delay due to the cold weather!  It makes me homesick for Greenville... I used to love two hour delay days... we got credit for being at school but our day was shortened... I used to stay up late the night before waiting on the call... checking out the window every hour.... and listening for the news... wow how things have changed... now we get a text, a phone call, or a facebook message... I like it! 

2.  I was playing around with my blog while ago... I'm shocked that I have had 12,699 visitors to my blog... I'm a little concerned that I'm being stalked, or either someone is constantly reading the same things over and over again... I completely understand why people go private now with their blogs... I mean this my diary... for my children... I don't mind sharing how much I love them with everyone, but that may be too many people...

3.  I am sure that Mayonnaise would not approve of the contraption I have set up in my garage for the dogs tonight... I have a small space heater plugged in on top of a college dorm refrigerator with the cords from the extension cord inside it... the cords are drapped over the motorcycle and a shelf... I also have a tarp nailed to the door to block the wind... I feel sure that someone important will be visiting me tomorrow... I will have to get up at the regular time to get all that stuff out of the way! 

4.  I am so mad at myself after reading one of my friend's post on facebook... Her church is offering a warm place for anyone who doesn't have heat and they are cooking breakfast for those that stay... what a gracious church... Wish I had thought of doing that! 

5.  I bought several little things this weekend... my favorite was a clear pitcher with a piece running down the middle... when I held it up, Mama said that I would be able to freeze that middle piece and keep things cold... she was wrong... it is for fruit... I cut up lemons and oranges and stuck them down the middle... the fruit infuses into the water... so good... and I hate pulp... and seeds... so none of that comes in to play.... also- the fruit stays fresh for a week to ten days like that... so refreshing... can't wait to try some new fruits...

6.  Mark has flown to San Diego... Here I sit in my bed with two blankets on me and he is wearing short sleeved shirts... I would be jealous of him, but the text he sent me this afternoon changed my mind... "We are crossing into Arkansas... Looking for better air... 225 mph headtail winds"... oh my gosh... I would die right there...

7.  I could really care less who wins between Auburn and FSU.... I'm watching... but no excitement to me... I'm glad I'm not a majorette anymore... there is nothing flattering about those uniforms...

8.  I LOVE surprises and thoughtful gifts... this afternoon I saw a box at my front door when I drove up... I tried to remember what in the world I had ordered... I quickly ran in and opened the box... I didn't have a lot of time before I had to leave for tumbling... I saw that it was a beautiful wintry scene puzzle... In my mind, I said, "Mark needs his butt kicked... I have to take KB to Augusta on Mondays, I have class on Tuesdays, Wednesday is church night, and Fridays and Saturdays we have basketball... He knows I will be so caught up with the puzzle I won't do anything else!"... As we were driving home from Augusta I got a message and realized Mark didn't order the puzzle...  It was a thoughtful gift that was from the heart!  I LOVE IT!  And now... since it was a gift... I have to do it... I'm going to let Mark take KB tumbling next week, I'm going to procrastinate on my homework, and I'm going to stay up late working on that puzzle!  I love sweet notes, sweet presents, and sweet  friends! 

9.  I have a prized container of "different tea" on my counter.  This weekend I called BC and she said she was looking for the recipe for Russian tea... Jim and Guille always asked for different tea... so that is what I say... Mama made us some tonight and sent me a tupperware dish with it!  I can't wait to drink it in the morning!  It used to be my favorite... and...it's is no fat!  She used Splenda.... 

10.  I am hoping that we have a snow day the day after the Super Bowl too... It's only halftime and almost 10:30... too late....

11.  I start my last semester of school tomorrow... am I sad... NO... am I going to miss... HECK NO... have I learned anything the past two years... Well... WE WILL SEE.... Am I going to have a tremendous amount of time after April!!!!  YES!!!!

12.  I am working on our summer plans now... we have been fortunate enough to go somewhere every summer with Mark's work or the Huddle House convention.... This year the two events are both being held in Atlanta... I'm thinking I need to go somewhere educational.... like Hawaii... like that could be my graduation present... like Pearl Harbor is educational...and volcanoes... and I'm sure lots of other things... I'm going to get my case together before I present it to Mark! 

13.  I love January... the newness of everything... the cleanliness... the organization... I have to get a little more motivated... that darn puzzle is throwing my schedule off....

14.  I sure do hope someone will text me if some exciting news is happening on facebook and instagram... I have to give up something... I have replaced them and candy crush with other "better" habits.... let's hope I can stick with it! 

My other favorite number is 14... I stop at 14 tonight because I'm tired...

15. One more... I don't think women should be announcers for football... they haven't played a down in their lives... why would they want to announce the game???? Doesn't make sense to me....